I Will Be Here

I thought people might have wondered why I chose this song for my lettering challenge. Since obviously, it's not a worship song. So well, let me tell you the story behind it.

 It was around this time 10 years ago that I met my husband Ray @raycruz314 for the first time. 💛 Right off the bat I wanted to choose a special song for this time. This song randomly came up as I was listening to an old play list. These lyrics stuck out to me and spoke so deeply to my heart.

And let me tell you why...

You see, I am an only child. After several miscarriages my parents had me when they were in their mid 40s. I grew up knowing they were much older than my friends parents. I don’t know how, but even at a very very young age I was aware that I wouldn’t have them as long as others would have theirs. I became suuuuper attached to them, because when you’re afraid of losing something/someone that’s what happens. My biggest fear was that someday I’d wake up all alone to face this world by myself. I started doing the math...okay, when I graduate high school they’ll be 66...college...70...when I get married? Ahh. Who evennn knows. This fear traveled with me through all these different chapters of my life until God decided it was time to change up my story. I met Ray. We fell in love, decided we would walk this life together, and on our wedding day I uttered these words in my vow: “Growing up as an only child with older parents I had this fear, that some day I’d wake up and be all alone, but I’m not scared of that anymore because I know that every single day, I’m going to wake next to you.” I know this wonderful man was making this promise to me and the One who created me. To love and lead me, to tell my fear to hit the road, and to be there when I wake up. Thank You God.